right so today has been FUUNY and slightly weird. i think ive gone insane. HA!
It's been just so damn crazy, i dont even know why!
but woaaah! one thing that shocked me was what i saw! basically, theres this girl Dervylle whos just the shit right and shes got a boyfriend buttt! i saw a picture of him hugging this girl from the back now i know thats just not being friendly but wow that must be a slap in the face for her! she must be fuuuuming!
Another funny moment was when my gorg soulmate cory said "Jesus choudry" now you may not think its funny, but its one of those moments when you imagine them saying it and it sounds funny as heck! so ill admit i laughed over something that was through cyber communication. xD
Now 2moro should be fun i mean im going out with the mumzyyy shopping so normal teenage girl thing right. now im looking into trousers. Not that interesting but i really dont have anything to blog about today so that will have to do!:D
CHOWDER.
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- Noor Choudry
- I FOLLOW ALL OF MY FOLLOWERS. it's not a regular thing. Im 15. Emotional. Insane. And just wanna type.
Wednesday, 1 June 2011
Tuesday, 31 May 2011
this really is a pisstake.
I just dont understand how you can be like this! since when have you been like this towards me?! All because he's in the picture everything changes and you're a whole another person.
they way your being makes me sick to my stomach, you call this happiness. its all delusional. why can't you see whats right or wrong thats right infront of you. The sound of the voice that angers me so. and you know it does. yet you do nothing to stop it. 'what can i do'. the same old excuses.
just for the slightest piece of freedom I need to wait 12 days. Why did you have to go for so long, you're the only one who kept me sane from this shitty situation. But everything is going to change. and you're going to leave. and ill have no one to turn to.
this whole thing just pisses me of. they may say let it go, but you got to be angry so why cant i be too.
i want to get away from this. im not speaking suicidal i mean thats just ridiculous but this needs to go away.
Why cant i just get rid of this anger?!
why is it so hard to let go..
they way your being makes me sick to my stomach, you call this happiness. its all delusional. why can't you see whats right or wrong thats right infront of you. The sound of the voice that angers me so. and you know it does. yet you do nothing to stop it. 'what can i do'. the same old excuses.
just for the slightest piece of freedom I need to wait 12 days. Why did you have to go for so long, you're the only one who kept me sane from this shitty situation. But everything is going to change. and you're going to leave. and ill have no one to turn to.
this whole thing just pisses me of. they may say let it go, but you got to be angry so why cant i be too.
i want to get away from this. im not speaking suicidal i mean thats just ridiculous but this needs to go away.
Why cant i just get rid of this anger?!
why is it so hard to let go..
CHANGE
WOAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
everythings changing! kinda scary! i mean my mother acutally said i have to grow up now :| is she freaking kidding me?!
i mean first of all my sisters getting married, i mean okay whatever i know i have to clean more but yeah (asian thing) next thing you know BAM! next year my brothers getting married i mean woaaaaah! MIND FUCK. its flipping crazy, but on the plus side i get a freaking sister in law! weirdddddddd! so, thought id blog that on the courtesy of my soul mate. Cory.
CHOWDER.
everythings changing! kinda scary! i mean my mother acutally said i have to grow up now :| is she freaking kidding me?!
i mean first of all my sisters getting married, i mean okay whatever i know i have to clean more but yeah (asian thing) next thing you know BAM! next year my brothers getting married i mean woaaaaah! MIND FUCK. its flipping crazy, but on the plus side i get a freaking sister in law! weirdddddddd! so, thought id blog that on the courtesy of my soul mate. Cory.
CHOWDER.
blahhhh emotions.
Blog.
I'm hurt and it's not okay. it's hard to forgive something that has nothing good about it. growing up with this hatred around me seems normal but when it comes to forgiving and forgetting I don't understand how it can be done so easily. the weight on my chest gets heavier and taking a deep breath just isn't easy anyone. you don't get the relief you hope for. why is it so easy for others to forgive, don't they feel the same hatred as I do considering it's come from them. can love really overpower it? I just don't feel that anymore. any shred of it has been distorted by disappointment and failure.
they say money cant buy happiness. yet when it's taken from so you brutally and your left with nothing and still they never learn from their mistakes I don't know how they can live with that. it's like living with a fish you'll feed and sometimes clean it but it has no importance and is not necessary and you waste money and time on it then what's the point?! how can the love be there when you've been hurt so badly?
thoughts from CHOWDER
I'm hurt and it's not okay. it's hard to forgive something that has nothing good about it. growing up with this hatred around me seems normal but when it comes to forgiving and forgetting I don't understand how it can be done so easily. the weight on my chest gets heavier and taking a deep breath just isn't easy anyone. you don't get the relief you hope for. why is it so easy for others to forgive, don't they feel the same hatred as I do considering it's come from them. can love really overpower it? I just don't feel that anymore. any shred of it has been distorted by disappointment and failure.
they say money cant buy happiness. yet when it's taken from so you brutally and your left with nothing and still they never learn from their mistakes I don't know how they can live with that. it's like living with a fish you'll feed and sometimes clean it but it has no importance and is not necessary and you waste money and time on it then what's the point?! how can the love be there when you've been hurt so badly?
thoughts from CHOWDER
Monday, 30 May 2011
Disappointment
Disappointment- The feeling of sadness or displeasure caused by the nonfulfillment of one's hopes or expectations
It's scary giving someone your trust knowing that doing this could cause nothing but sadness for you. i longed for this day and yes i was disappointed.
Having you're hopes up is like a game of Russian roulette.
you have you really trust to find the outcome. It really is a pisstake, i mean you feel like a total idiot. the anger just stays with you without you even knowing until one day it's burst. Burst at the most wrong time and then and only then will the weight on your chest will finally disappear.
knowing that you can't trust them makes you think whether your respect or even love for them really exist. They could leave you with nothing and not even look back, there's always a risk.
Chowder.
It's scary giving someone your trust knowing that doing this could cause nothing but sadness for you. i longed for this day and yes i was disappointed.
Having you're hopes up is like a game of Russian roulette.
you have you really trust to find the outcome. It really is a pisstake, i mean you feel like a total idiot. the anger just stays with you without you even knowing until one day it's burst. Burst at the most wrong time and then and only then will the weight on your chest will finally disappear.
knowing that you can't trust them makes you think whether your respect or even love for them really exist. They could leave you with nothing and not even look back, there's always a risk.
Chowder.
Immmm baaaack!....Again.
So i haven't been blogging for a while
my super cool friend Ana Mariaa told me i should, she was craving my posts i guess ;) Well anyway i back and hopefully will be blogging more, its funny when i feel down or im quiet (which isnt often) i tend to wanna blog.
Today has been okay i guess, kinda disappointing but just for the sake of it, ill talk about that in another post, give you guys a little more to read ;) sad yes. do i care no.
I know my background is horrendously weird but i seriously love it. I'm the freaky Asian and the other half of my life in Cory. She is a WONDERFUL human being. Let's just say she entertaining in many ways. We have a love/hate rela-oh i mean friendship... HA! Its not homo just a whole lotta lovinnnn. ;D
So i hope my 4 followers (THE AMOUNT IS SO LAME BUT I APPRECIATE YOU GUYS!) enjoy my posts and helpfully they come frequently!
Byebye for now.
CHOWDER.
Wednesday, 6 April 2011
b-b-b-b-blog! s-s-s-shakeeee- SHUT UP
right so i have not blogged in a while due to me being sick! it's soooooooooooooooooooooo annoying! like REALLLLY annoying! did i mention it was annoying? well anyway the sun's been comming out! who would of knew we had one in england? xD
So if any of you have seen the 'shake it up' show maaaaaaaaybe you'll have the same opinion as me?
i don't even have the words to describe them! They are annoying, though their clothes are like SUPER but their really....DITSY? it's irritatiing!
give an opinion!
So if any of you have seen the 'shake it up' show maaaaaaaaybe you'll have the same opinion as me?
i don't even have the words to describe them! They are annoying, though their clothes are like SUPER but their really....DITSY? it's irritatiing!
give an opinion!
Tuesday, 29 March 2011
unusual emotions - a opinion
you never realy know why you feel this way, some just say its one of those days but how long or how many can you have. I wouldnt say it was a sort of depression but it certainly shouldnt be like this. Now people describe emotions in many different ways but the way i would explain it would be keeping it simple and make it sound like one of those annoying or really loved films.
sometimes i feel empty inside, its as if theres a void and it needs to be filled with something i dont even know. unknown emotions can be worried about but figured out right could end in you feeling whole again.
sometimes you just need to put down words even if they dont make sense but just to atempt to figure out or even have an idea of whats wrong.
now this post is no depression crap just a few words typed out! leave an opinion.
sometimes i feel empty inside, its as if theres a void and it needs to be filled with something i dont even know. unknown emotions can be worried about but figured out right could end in you feeling whole again.
sometimes you just need to put down words even if they dont make sense but just to atempt to figure out or even have an idea of whats wrong.
now this post is no depression crap just a few words typed out! leave an opinion.
Sunday, 27 March 2011
Periods. Smelly. Fishy. Periods.
right so girls, we all have them right and its essential that we manage it properly! well some do anyway!
Heres a story or shall i say incident about one BOYS LOOK AWAY.
So as i was walking casually towards the bathroom to do the natural girl thing in checking my apparence shall we say there suddnenly was a blasted ouder as i opened the door ( i wish i never did). It smelt like a fish puked up fish then ate it then puked it up again! my nose was burning with the smell as were my lungs.Now im not saying they smell like frigging flowers on a sunny day but come on girls theres a flipping limit! change regularly and keep yourself clean! i mean of course first timers may have a bit of trouble in the beggining and even if they do help them out! dont be afraid to tell someone in privert if they "smell" of have leaked! but then again dont be afraid to go and worry about the smell, ofcourse theres gunna be one but it shouldnt be really smelly! That will only happen if u havent changed in hours! so females, change ever 2-3 hours and always have an emergancy kit in your bag just incase now this should include of spare pads/tampons, wipes, spray and spare undies! gooooooodluck! :)
Heres a story or shall i say incident about one BOYS LOOK AWAY.
So as i was walking casually towards the bathroom to do the natural girl thing in checking my apparence shall we say there suddnenly was a blasted ouder as i opened the door ( i wish i never did). It smelt like a fish puked up fish then ate it then puked it up again! my nose was burning with the smell as were my lungs.Now im not saying they smell like frigging flowers on a sunny day but come on girls theres a flipping limit! change regularly and keep yourself clean! i mean of course first timers may have a bit of trouble in the beggining and even if they do help them out! dont be afraid to tell someone in privert if they "smell" of have leaked! but then again dont be afraid to go and worry about the smell, ofcourse theres gunna be one but it shouldnt be really smelly! That will only happen if u havent changed in hours! so females, change ever 2-3 hours and always have an emergancy kit in your bag just incase now this should include of spare pads/tampons, wipes, spray and spare undies! gooooooodluck! :)
random thoughts
k guys what is the deal with shouting, it doesnt get your heared any differently then your inside voice! though it is a way to express deep emotions in which are raging inside of you
my cat is boring. is it really there just to sit? i mean come on a fish is more entertaining. i also have a dog and no im not a freak with muiltiple animals/pets! they bark all damn day! grrrrrrr!
i hate little kidds! their ennoying voices and shyness kills me inside! its like PISS OFFF" they really do not get the message! and then you gotta live with them! which is terrible!
my cat is boring. is it really there just to sit? i mean come on a fish is more entertaining. i also have a dog and no im not a freak with muiltiple animals/pets! they bark all damn day! grrrrrrr!
i hate little kidds! their ennoying voices and shyness kills me inside! its like PISS OFFF" they really do not get the message! and then you gotta live with them! which is terrible!
IM BACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!
well im back to blog! well no one really missed me since im not popular on this at all but what the hey!:D so i was walking down the road today on my way to meet a friend and well i saw a hobo or in other words a guy with no life peeing in a bush. So well i was like okay, fair enough thats his disturbing life but then her turned around facing my direction. So now you must be thinking he approched me? NOPE! he walked extremely fast past me to a guy with a dog! He also had strong stench of pee on him which well we can all guess how that came about! Anyway moving on, as i was saying he ran to the dog now i kinda wanted to laugh but also felt sorry for him as he was talking directly to the dog, STRANGE WORLD OUT THERE.
well, not being weird but that incident made my day since my friend happen to have seen it to and well pretty much laughed about it all day!
peaceout blogggers!
well, not being weird but that incident made my day since my friend happen to have seen it to and well pretty much laughed about it all day!
peaceout blogggers!
Sunday, 9 January 2011
Blackberrys!
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| JUST LOOK AT THEM! |
Whats so great about them? Like every teenager i know HAS a blackberry! its a BUSINESS PHONE isnt it?! They way people talk about them like its their world! to be honest.....I WANT ONE! yes i know im a hypocite, but my gosh i want one! my SISTER who is NOT my mother wont let me!!!!!!!!!!!! shes older then me of course and well its that big sister annoying thing! grrr. its a piss take! SHE EVEN HAS ONE! shes says heres a list of her "reasons"
1) Its expensive.
2) its a business phone, its NOT for teens
3) im not trusted. WHAT DOES THAT EVEN MEAN!
4) she thinks ill get up to no good? SHES NOT MY MOTHER!5) ill be on it all the time and will change ? OF COURSE ILL BE ON IT ALL THE TIME BUT CHANGE?!
6) im "spoilt" which im really not! like seriously!
GRRRRRRRR! DAMMIT, but hey i cant live without her!
What are sisters good for?
1) well, their older so they've been through the crappy fashion!
2) we know how to dress because of them!
3) take their stuff:P mwahaah!
4) their clothes! well jewellery and stuff
5) they die first?
6) they can be like your best friend
7) you learn from their mistakes, so you come out gooooooooooood ;)
8) and well! WE JUST LOVE EM!
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| It made me laugh:L |
shes PATHETIC! Stupid TANJOTH!
right so im minding my business, on facebook of course then i see someone on my chat list who i dont know, ( shes female ) so, i say, well the obvious,
"do i know you?"
and then like an annoyance! she says nope, you added me.
so right, im a bit confused she clearly added me, ( i have the email to prove it!) so hmm she must of forgotten or something so i say
"umm, you added me lol,"
then, well this girl starts to get brave and says i didnt ahahaha
im like what the soap! (in my head) i really did not add this stupid girl! so then i say
" i didnt add you, i dont add random people like a retard, you clearly added me"
so then of course she makes up BULL CRAP like ohh, no you added me i have the email to prove it. right see now i know for sure i have the email clearly stating TANJOTH added me! ( her name -_-) but dammit my print screen button wasnt working! so then i copy and paste the email, and send it to her via fb mail and then she goes so what. im like what the helll! is this girl dumb! then all of a sudden shes gets weirdly defensive and says shizzle like oh leave me alone and crap like that! At this point im getting cheesed off its like how pathetic can you get! so, i get my good ass friend ANA MARIE PREDAAA! just love saying her name, and like a hero! shes does my print screen crap for me!:D so know, i defiantly know i have evidence on this tramp! so like a meanie, i post it on her wall the print screen and say there you added me, and well she cant take it so she repeatedly deletes the post, so i put it on my status, and now shs getting all racist and crap and abusive which i LOL'd at! and like a freak she comments saying "i didnt xx" WTF! whats with the xx's and the non abusive words?! grrrrrrrrrrr! she peed me off" now its like what a couple of days later and now TANJOTH had POKED ME! (i deleted her after ) like seriously?!?!!? so i send an email without poking back, why the hell are you poking me for you freak and she says, i didnt hahaa im like what the crap! grrr, so guys what should i say back to make her see how pathetic she is!
AND YES I KNOW, THAT WAS ALL POINTLESS AND BITCHY but come on, im a female teenager, its what we unfortunately do..
gr!
"do i know you?"
and then like an annoyance! she says nope, you added me.
so right, im a bit confused she clearly added me, ( i have the email to prove it!) so hmm she must of forgotten or something so i say
"umm, you added me lol,"
then, well this girl starts to get brave and says i didnt ahahaha
im like what the soap! (in my head) i really did not add this stupid girl! so then i say
" i didnt add you, i dont add random people like a retard, you clearly added me"
so then of course she makes up BULL CRAP like ohh, no you added me i have the email to prove it. right see now i know for sure i have the email clearly stating TANJOTH added me! ( her name -_-) but dammit my print screen button wasnt working! so then i copy and paste the email, and send it to her via fb mail and then she goes so what. im like what the helll! is this girl dumb! then all of a sudden shes gets weirdly defensive and says shizzle like oh leave me alone and crap like that! At this point im getting cheesed off its like how pathetic can you get! so, i get my good ass friend ANA MARIE PREDAAA! just love saying her name, and like a hero! shes does my print screen crap for me!:D so know, i defiantly know i have evidence on this tramp! so like a meanie, i post it on her wall the print screen and say there you added me, and well she cant take it so she repeatedly deletes the post, so i put it on my status, and now shs getting all racist and crap and abusive which i LOL'd at! and like a freak she comments saying "i didnt xx" WTF! whats with the xx's and the non abusive words?! grrrrrrrrrrr! she peed me off" now its like what a couple of days later and now TANJOTH had POKED ME! (i deleted her after ) like seriously?!?!!? so i send an email without poking back, why the hell are you poking me for you freak and she says, i didnt hahaa im like what the crap! grrr, so guys what should i say back to make her see how pathetic she is!
AND YES I KNOW, THAT WAS ALL POINTLESS AND BITCHY but come on, im a female teenager, its what we unfortunately do..
gr!
Monday, 3 January 2011
theres an ouch in my neck!
i woke up this morning with a huge ass kink in my neck! u cant move it, damn it hurts! its pretty funny, i cant look left or right so i look all posh and weird!
My dog is barking like a mad thing! and my cat well.. is just there.
I NEED A HOLIDAY!
My dog is barking like a mad thing! and my cat well.. is just there.
I NEED A HOLIDAY!
Sunday, 2 January 2011
I love Come dine with me!
I love it! though its kind of an adults show by what the hey!
Leave your thoughts :)
Wednesday, 29 December 2010
Will stacey slater come back to eastenders?!
Well, shes left and we all watched that episode! Damn you mean Janine, though weirdly, apart from the crazyness, i think shes preety much okay...
I dont actually know WHY she left, but i think she is to come back
Well leave your thoughts!
I dont actually know WHY she left, but i think she is to come back
Well leave your thoughts!
SIGH!
So this post is called "Sigh!" well in capital letters, and well im having a bad day, i wont bore you with details but god some people are heartless! They dont know the situation and asume things which make you look bad. Sometimes you dont know what to so say whats wrong with that?! Im sick of people judging!
But on another note, i hear its going to snow-AGAIN, kinda sick of the slipping and extreme coldness but then again, were else am i going to wear my wellies ( and yes i know they are made for the rain too ).
and guys, dont be strangers!:D (though you are)
But on another note, i hear its going to snow-AGAIN, kinda sick of the slipping and extreme coldness but then again, were else am i going to wear my wellies ( and yes i know they are made for the rain too ).
and guys, dont be strangers!:D (though you are)
Monday, 27 December 2010
Thoughts
The way a person can make you feel small and not know that they do. Your confidence can be torn down by the simplest things and can make you feel paranoid and self conscious. You can feel worthless and non important. But they've said nothing and it can all be your thoughts but then it could be reality.
But then knowing you've made someones day can make your day. It means you matter to someone.
So take a chance, you never know were it can lead you, it may be a bad choice but then we have something to learn from. Thats life
But then knowing you've made someones day can make your day. It means you matter to someone.
So take a chance, you never know were it can lead you, it may be a bad choice but then we have something to learn from. Thats life
Saturday, 25 December 2010
Merry Christmas? 2012 film?
YES I KNOW ITS THE NEXT DAY, but I dont celebrate christmas, and yes i know thats not an excuse bt anyways thought id say it! But to be fair, Muslims still have roast dinners XD And wow it actually was a snowing chistmas this year!:o totally global warming that is!
which brings me some how to the 2012 film!
will we die?! who knows.. but! in my OPINION, i think we wont die because well thats silly BUT somethings going to happen, not as in its gunna rain but maybe aliens..? or was that even stupider then the world ending? well leave your thoughts!
which brings me some how to the 2012 film!
will we die?! who knows.. but! in my OPINION, i think we wont die because well thats silly BUT somethings going to happen, not as in its gunna rain but maybe aliens..? or was that even stupider then the world ending? well leave your thoughts!
Im new -_-
right so ive never blogged before, i thought id try it and well its okay i guess. I feel really stupid as its kinda confusing and have no idea what to do, obviously im blogging but im not really BLOGGING if that made sense? Im 14, i have no idea what age group blogging is mostly targeted at, ive looked at some peoples blogs as so far its all been sorta old people.. AWKWARD... ive found no teen blogs and well, i feel hopeless! It's early days obviously but got any tips?
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